Apr 19, 2009

How long has it been...

I took another break from blogging...starting to feel more like the norm. I have been reading other blogs and feel slightly up to date on your lives. There have been big moments, life altering decisions, devastating events, uncontrollable laughter and so much more. I love reading every bit that is out there as often as possible. But then I sit down to write something from my own life and I simply come up with BLANK THOUGHTS!

I am stumped about my block. It's not like there haven't been things to talk about...work, house, my heart...hell I just the crazy weather could be something to talk about. And yet every day I come up with nothing to say. Sometimes I think of a great entry and then rethink the words, intent, consequences and within seconds I am pounding away on the BACKSPACE button until there is nothing but a blank screen.

I'm not a writer (thank goodness my income doesn't depend on that) so I'm not really sure what is the best way to push through a block. But maybe I'll just try random thoughts...
  • I love that there have been stories of Pirates in the News. Almost feels like a real Disney movie. Not all of the bad parts...just the mention of Pirates.
  • Work has been so crazy that I am starting to wonder what have a "life" really would be like.
  • Will love always hurt me? Will I ever be "enough" or will I ever be able to have hope again?
  • Is it time to try for a baby...or does the work stuff make that impossible?
  • Why is it still snowing...NO MORE PLEASE!
  • Am I that person...the one that is great to support somebody, help create celebration, find solutions but incapable of creating my own world?

WOW...that was uplifting (NOT)! Okay, so maybe this is my last whine for a bit. Maybe now that it's all out I will be able to write something to write about.

8 comments:

Tee aka The Diva's Thoughts said...

I am so glad you are back blogging!!

Just as an fyi...I've wondered this many times myself, "Will love always hurt me? Will I ever be "enough" or will I ever be able to have hope again?"

Rob said...

I feel the same way sometimes. It is hard to write something daily or even every few days for that matter. Glad to see you are trying to get back on track. If you get some time check out my dad blog at http://www.pbandsmellysdad.com/

Beth said...

Seems like the bullet point about love could be an entire series of posts!

Stacie's Madness said...

welcome back...you've been missed. :)

I am reading a new book, a course on love, I'll keep you posted on how it is...

Suze said...

I'm glad you're back. I am laughing about the pirates thing because I was just thinking that myself.

Shawn said...

Yay---your back!

Its always good to put down random thoughts---they seem to help organize our brains a bit....

And yes, you can quote me.

Heh, heh.

Kelly O said...

Writer's block: you and me both, sister.

Baby: you don't need to wait for the perfect time. The pieces will fall into place if you decide you're ready.

R said...

Glad you posted and was able to write your true thoughts... you are ENOUGH.. you do deserve to be happy and you can create the good positive things in your life... as far as a baby.. when it's right you will know my friend... that's all we can do. You deserve great things and I KNOW that great things are coming... i have learned that we just have to be open and willing to accept them and they will come... hugs to you!