Jul 5, 2009

Work in progress

I can't believe that it's been almost two months since my last post. I have missed blogging, missed sharing what's in my head, heart and all of the random crap that happens on a daily basis. I have been doing a lot of therapy, self reflection, writing in my journal, bonding with family and friends...and I have used A TON of alcohol as my therapist (okay...not really that much). There have been great ups and some pretty tough lows. But overall I am starting to feel myself again.

I am working on trusting me! Simple I know...but I had forgotten how to trust me...trust what I know, what I feel, what is in front of me as fact. I had forgotten to believe that good things DO happen, love can heal and that I am capable of survival... I cut my hair short again after dreaming of that for so long. I started singing in public again (story for another time) to prove to myself that I have a voice. And I have been trying something new every day to push myself.

So I am now here to say...I am a work in progress. But I want happiness, I want love, I want passion, I want trust and loyalty, I want a baby and a family, I want peace, I want to love myself and I want to laugh every single day!



8 comments:

us 2 said...

you go girl.....welcome back to blogworld......

AJ's mommy said...

Missed you! Welcome back.

Stacie's Madness said...

missed you!

SP said...

Welcome back. You've been missed

Whiskeymarie said...

Here, let me get a chair for you and a glass of wine.
Comfortable?
Good.

(clinks glasses) Welcome back, my dear. You were missed.
;)

Shawn said...

Yay---you are back!

I was in Colorado last week---I waved to you when I went to Denver....

Hope you get all your wishes!

Catherine said...

You can only get what you want if you know what it is you want. You're on your way!

R said...

WOO HOOOOOOOOOOO!! Sorry.. been away and just now catching up :)