hey ms...are you talking to me?

I work with high school students and am amazed how I remember daily what school was like for me...a disaster. I was not a good student, not connected emotionally to school nor did I ever plan on working in that field. And years later I sit at my desk and wait for the bells to ring reminding me the time of day. I walk the halls and ask kids to follow rules, take of their hats, put away phones and go back to learning. It surprises me every day that I turned into one of THOSE adults. The people that we made fun, laughed at and ignored on a daily basis. I think of myself as young until I see myself through the eyes of a 15 years old boy. When I hear "Ms." is always look around in search of my mother. Working with students is suppose to keep you young, but currently it reminds me that time has moved on and I am now a full fledged adult!

so much fun...now it's time to pay

Restrictions, budgets, planning...those are the words that rule my life. I am a rule follower. Not the kind that does that everything right, but instead there are "life rules" like fill your tanks before it's empty, exercise daily, watch you eat, pay all of your bills on the 1st of the month. You get what I'm trying to say. But there is also the side of me that rebels against expectations, refuses to conform to societies ideas and believes in personal exploration. I am Ying/Yang! Ha... Over the summer I made choices that broke all the rules. I am in a relationship that surprised every friend I told, I partied as much as possible, I consumed as much alcohol as possible (making sure to stay on the side of "no problem"), I ate foods that were on the DO NOT EAT list, and I didn't exercise all that often. Those were the things that I was willing to own and later accept the consequences. While I am lying on the bed to buttom my pants, I have also accepted that it is time to put the drinks down, push away from the tables, say NO to trans-fat and drag my behind into the gym. That is a lot and until today I believed it was enough. But now I have realized that my bank account has also grown, streched and finally snapped!

So the words budget, exercise, diet, moderation...these are the words that will keep me warm in 2007! Ugh! Not as much fun, but I had a great time getting to this place!

First time for everything

I am new to the blogging community and nervous about this posting. When I decided to create a blog, I had a list of topics I was going to write, discuss and create solutions. But now that I am actually on-line and getting ready to put something out there for all of you to read, I realize that I have nothing...except random words, ideas and thoughts. As a child, I imagined writing a book or working for a magazine as a journalist. As the years went by, I realized that writing may not really be a career path and maybe I was meant for something a little less artistic. But I enjoy the idea of sharing my thoughts and questions with the universe without putting a face to the stories. So for now, this is my first attempt at blogging and I am excited that the first step is over. I look forward to sharing, reading, thinking and laughing with the blogging community.