Jun 26, 2008

Laser by gone!


I'm not sure if you remember this picture...but there are only two of these tattoos in the world. That's right...I have a matching tattoo with my ex. And we just got them at the end of February during her big Vegas birthday. I haven't loved the actual tattoo (don't think the artist did such a great job), but I loved the idea of sharing that with the person that I loved. In fact, when we were designing what the tattoo was going to look like, she wanted to add the "strength" symbol in the middle...you know, the symbol that really looks like a 4! Well, I was hesitant because I wasn't sure why we needed to add strength to anything about us and I did think that it looked like a 4. She explained that the symbol was going to be a reminder...our symbol. That we were strong. She told me it was to remind her every time she looked at the tattoo that "she got strength from our relationship!" Deep...and I loved that idea. Well, yesterday she told me that she had been trying to tell me she was "restless" for awhile. Hmmm...I didn't hear that in the strength from our relationship speech. Oh well...done with that. So it was even more appropriate that I had my third laser appointment scheduled just minutes after receiving her latest update of excuses. http://youtube.com/watch?v=-ZSd0G8Va58&feature=related

I originally had an artist who was going to enhance or try to improve the existing tattoo. I met with him in March and that was our original plan. But after the lies, cheating...crap, I decided that I just needed to remove her constant lie from my arm, I live with the lies everyday in other ways. So just to give an update on laser...it hurts like hell! Your skin burns, blisters, itches and peels, but eventually that tattoo goes away. In fact, my tattoo is expected to be almost gone by the time this last treatment is done. So I rescheduled an appointment with the same tattoo artist to have something beautiful be put on top of the old. and in another month...I will have something beautiful in it's place. I am not trying to pretend that it was not there...so I'm not removing it 100%. Pretending that things didn't exist is her area not mine. But I refuse to live in that lie forever. So I am covering it with something that is about my inner strength, beauty, survival and love of life! I am going to wear only truth on my arm.


11 comments:

R said...

wow. maybe she could have told you about that restless feeling before asking to get matching tattoos with you. in any case, it doesn{t matter b-c now you have gotten rid of it and you are putting something over it that represents you and your strength. and girl, you have got some strength. i{m so proud of you. sorry for the punctuation, can{t figure it out here in panama. lol. you go girl. i love your post. i love your strength. i love you ability to feel and be free.

Suze's Sass said...

Good for you. It feels good to be strong doesn't it!! Good things to come for you now my friend.

us 2 said...

good for you i am so happy for you....you are full of strength with out her.....it is a blessing you are not with her because you deserve so much better........take care and i cant wait to see the new tattoo

Caroline said...

Good for you. I am so proud of the progress you have made and how you are taking control of your life and happiness. I agree with us2, you deserve so much better

Stacey said...

good planning! i too have a tattoo with my ex, but it was not a bad break up, so i just enhanced the tattoo, one day I may have it removed and have something more meaningful to my wife and baby put there.... good on you

PinkPiddyPaws said...

Congrats sweetie! I'm glad you are moving forward and making a clean start.

Question-- is it really okay to get a new tattoo on top of the lasererd skin? I've never heard of that before and my first thought was "wow..I bet that skin is tender" so I was just wondering. :)

Renaissance Woman said...

Pink - yes, you can get a tattoo over lasered skin. Within a month the skin will be ready for a new tattoo. I'll keep you posted.

Thanks everybody! Go see 3 Mo Diva's

Eye of the Rainbow said...

You are alot stronger then you give yourself credit for...You go girl!! I cant wait to see the new tattoo. I have 3 of them that match my ex wife's.

WendyB said...

Ouch! Glad you are getting rid of it.

Stacie said...

ouch on the laser...does it hurt worse than the actual tattoo itself??? just wonderin.

Can't find strength in OTHERS unless you find the strength in YOURSELF first...I think.

Kudos and I can't wait to see the NEW AND IMPROVED tat.

Marcy "meg" said...

I would like to get rid of a TAT. You will have to tell me more about that process!