Jul 31, 2008

I'm ashamed to admit


that the green eyed monster has taken over my being or at least taken up temporary residence. I am not proud and know that there are so many other people in the world who have so much less and I need to just appreciate what I do have. I know...but I have still been feeling jealous recently of others. I went to a new restaurant in my neighborhood last night and was jealous of the couples and families who were there together. Laughing, talking, eating and drinking...just being. I felt jealous of my friends who called me today to share their upcoming romantic getaway plans. The final straw...my co-worker announced to me today that she is four months pregnant and I felt it in my gut. JEALOUSY! I am not proud...and I am happy for her, for my friends and for those eating last night. But it doesn't change that feeling in my gut...the green eyed monster.

19 comments:

Caroline said...

Oh my gosh....you just described how I have been feeling....

Suze's Sass said...

Your day will come my friend!

Gwen said...

It's ok to be jealous as long as you control it and not the other way around. I've been feeling the same way when I see happy couples.

If it makes you feel any better, those people were probably fighting by the time they made it home. Snarkiness, the best cure for jealousy.

R said...

Its okay my friend. Jealousy is a normal reaction to the things we lost and the things we long for. The good thing is that it comes and goes just like all of the other emotions we feel.
At some point, others will be Jealous of YOU and what YOU have :)
Won't that day rock? !!

Marcy "meg" said...

It happens to the best of us. Don't get too down!

Kelly O said...

I think the cool thing about envy is that it's a clear indicator of what we want out of life, a nice, unambiguous sign of what to work toward.

patsy said...

understand completely.

us 2 said...

it will all work out....your time is coming ....you deserve to be happy...

Darrin said...

I'll admit, I get that way as well from time to time. Usually my bouts have to do with where I'm at in life vs. others my age.

Ya know.. cars, houses, vacations, being happy. All superficial I know... except for the happiness thing maybe.

Love your blog, will definitely be back!

Stacie said...

There was a book that I just finished reading...and there was a saying in there that popped up when I read your post...

(paraphrasing, but would be glad to send the book to you if you wish...)

To feel love and happiness you have to feel the sadness too, because it will only make the happy feel that much better.

OK THAT WAS totally paraphrasing. Please email me, I will send the book, it was a neat little story.

bugsnbubs at verizon dot net

Always In Style said...

It happens to the best of us...and on a side note; things aren't always greener on the other side of the fence...who knows what's going on in all of those scenarios.

Eye of the Rainbow said...

I think its normal to feel like that, i think we all have feelings like those!
Your day will come when others will be jealous of you!! :)

PinkPiddyPaws said...

I get it.. I really do! I find myself fighting that sometimes too. It's natural, right? RIGHT??? But the important thing is to not let it take over. You know?

Whiskeymarie said...

It's natural. We always want what we don't have. Even when I seemingly have everything I want I still get jealous for all sorts of reasons.
All the time.
It will pass.
I'm jealous of your remodeling skills!

Shawn said...

I'm jealous of you, because you get so many comments.

So there, now you can feel good about yourself. Rock on, girl.

Moe Wanchuk said...

Do you know how jealous my wife is of YOU?

Catherine said...

At least you know that that's what's going on. Your self-aware enough to identify the trait. So, rock on with your bad self.

SP said...

It happens to all of us. Sometimes it helps if you picture the happy family finding a hair in their meal... at least I might have heard that once, somewhere.

Sornie said...

Being jealous only makes you work harder towards the things you want in my experiences.