It's time

I have been stuck in my house for so long...all summer break to be exact. I have a bad back and can barley walk from from to room. So today I was back at my doctor trying to find some resolution and while I was waiting for the x-ray tech I saw the endocrinology room. Reproductive endocrinology to be exact. So I walked in and scheduled an appointment to start the process. I want a baby and I can keep waiting for everything to fall into place but hell I'm not sure it will ever actually happen. And I am not getting any younger so it's time to just start the process. I want to be a mom and this is a option available to a single, gay woman. I'm scared but excited and ready to start what I feel might be a very long process.

My last post was about my best friend and one of the things that I love about him so much is his zest for life. And I talked with him last night on his new adventure and he promised to still be a permanent fixture in my life (ie. in my child's life). So today I took the first step to try and do one thing that I really want...to be a mom.